Pieces Of Thoughts And Memories~

“When Life Turn Abit Rough, You Need To Play Tough. Do You Think You Can Do It? I Dont Think… I Know That You Can Do It, So Let Just Do it “ ~ r d h ~

"The Bittersweet Of A Resurrection Is To Endure The Worst For The Best " ~ r d h ~

p/s : eventhough sometime we endure the worse, but we cant see the bright outcome 2morow, it doesnt mean u have to give up. it just mean that the better will come tomorow’s tomorow . jz endure the pain of a needle to get well from some kind of virus. haha.

title : sefFish n coldHearted.

im gonna update this soon. its one of the reason i thk that peterpan and the whole wonderland kids hate the adults and dont want to be adult themselve. haha. bcause they dont understand that we human learn to be selfish as we growup. i am selfish, and im proud to say so. ill explain soon so dont give any unmotivated critics first bcause i said im selFish ^^

title : the hidden yesterday…

its funny that everytime i close my eyes, feel the wind and i remember you.

its helarious that when i close both ears, i still hear u whispering thru the wind.

when they hold my hand, i feel the warmth of u .

its aching that i cant say i love u bcause i deeply care and love u .

its funnier when i return ur goods and cast away everything to remind me of u ,

but the memories remain unfaded.

i dont want u to fade away, but u sliped away…

i know that u loved me… and i know u dunno how much u mean to me.

keep saying to myself, endure ur aching for the one u loved to be happy.

and i say u are happier now… i should be happy as well

but i cant hide myself and tears dropped when i close my eyes and sleep away.

y did i love u ?

how much i love u ?

i jz dont know.

but i know that i still miss u …

u were perfect for me….. but i guess im full of flaws for u …

p/s : its time for me to try to accept my feelings and face it. being keeping this for sometime in my hardisk hahaha. y should i be ashame of stgh i feel?? y should i care so much abt what others might say when im jz being me. have such a feeling is not a shame and not a crime. and ofcouse i should learn to express it as well. bcause u know what? not everybody have telekinetics and can read ur mind and feelings. i admit every single words ive writen and i admit my mistakes. stoopid me. i hope the next time i read this post again, i can say to my self  " i apreciate that i had this experience as lesson "….

what doesnt kill u, it will make u stronger… so accept it and dont get killed by it. survive it !

the end of 2007 and the begining of 2008 ….give me a thought that :

"the end of a begining and a start of an ending…the only thing that the new year celebration thought me was, life doesnt have any intermission. it start with a heart beat and shall end with one last breath" ~ rdh ~

ive met a bunch of ppl who say they dun mind abt the looks and
watsoever.but they did pull their faces frm uglyness thinking that
their fair are forever theirs.and its funny how they c charms in
temporary gud looking faces.and i c ugliness in the attitude and soul.

and its funny when they pull their faces from those cursed ugly beast
when what i c is….sincerity and humbleness in the eyes of those
innocent beasts.

i dont blame those who take looks to judge ppl.bcause its a fact that
1st impression pierce the most.and inner beuty does mould the outer
beuty.but sumtimes its better not to decide who is charming and who is
not by their looks bcuse a prince/princess with a monster mask do
exist.the mask exist in order to provide true friendship thorugh the
walk of life…
and a monster with a charming mask do exist as well in order to hunt those who are blinded by their own sight.

~ rdh ~

its was almost 10 o’clock in the evening and i was walking my fren to the bus station and wishing them farewell. as i lighted my cigerrete and waves at them from the bus station, i notice sumbody with a cigerette but no lighter at hand. then i offered to light the cigerete for him.  he smiled and allowed me to light it for him . then he said thx, and i smiled and replied…. its a pleasure ^^.

we started with a simply smile and end up siting on the floor besides "ampang st" and chat about life. we share lots of story and as listening to his story while smokig together under the lamp post where humans passing by doing their routine, i admire his spirit of walking with no regrets and faith.

he only manage to finish his spm with a very bad result. and he told me not to give up on study no matter how old u are. and he promise me that if i do give up, i shall regret them all my life. and from his face i can feel the feelings..

alot of advices i got frm him. but the most i put in mind was about "heading to a destnation". he asked me to choose between having a long straight route towards ur destination or would i prefer a route with winding road?

p/s : gosh …. ill continue later.my fren keep asking me to accompany he eat =.=" dam.i shouldnt write bloq in cc haha. but without frens like this, life will me less interesting aint it? ciao

"i leave many for the one,but ive been abandoned by that only one" ~ rdh ~

"a princess meant for a prince"  and by this phrase the beast sacrifices his heart. inviting loneliness into his world of great solitude. the princess and the beast share deep passion for each other. yet the beast roar but the princess sings. ~ rdh ~

seriously… im not into hiphop stuff but this korean group blow me up with their "lies" and "last farewell" songs. realy cool.

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