title : sefFish n coldHearted.
im gonna update this soon. its one of the reason i thk that peterpan and the whole wonderland kids hate the adults and dont want to be adult themselve. haha. bcause they dont understand that we human learn to be selfish as we growup. i am selfish, and im proud to say so. ill explain soon so dont give any unmotivated critics first bcause i said im selFish ^^
title : the hidden yesterday…
its funny that everytime i close my eyes, feel the wind and i remember you.
its helarious that when i close both ears, i still hear u whispering thru the wind.
when they hold my hand, i feel the warmth of u .
its aching that i cant say i love u bcause i deeply care and love u .
its funnier when i return ur goods and cast away everything to remind me of u ,
but the memories remain unfaded.
i dont want u to fade away, but u sliped away…
i know that u loved me… and i know u dunno how much u mean to me.
keep saying to myself, endure ur aching for the one u loved to be happy.
and i say u are happier now… i should be happy as well
but i cant hide myself and tears dropped when i close my eyes and sleep away.
y did i love u ?
how much i love u ?
i jz dont know.
but i know that i still miss u …
u were perfect for me….. but i guess im full of flaws for u …
p/s : its time for me to try to accept my feelings and face it. being keeping this for sometime in my hardisk hahaha. y should i be ashame of stgh i feel?? y should i care so much abt what others might say when im jz being me. have such a feeling is not a shame and not a crime. and ofcouse i should learn to express it as well. bcause u know what? not everybody have telekinetics and can read ur mind and feelings. i admit every single words ive writen and i admit my mistakes. stoopid me. i hope the next time i read this post again, i can say to my self " i apreciate that i had this experience as lesson "….
what doesnt kill u, it will make u stronger… so accept it and dont get killed by it. survive it !
