yesterday’s lesson
title : the hidden yesterday…
its funny that everytime i close my eyes, feel the wind and i remember you.
its helarious that when i close both ears, i still hear u whispering thru the wind.
when they hold my hand, i feel the warmth of u .
its aching that i cant say i love u bcause i deeply care and love u .
its funnier when i return ur goods and cast away everything to remind me of u ,
but the memories remain unfaded.
i dont want u to fade away, but u sliped away…
i know that u loved me… and i know u dunno how much u mean to me.
keep saying to myself, endure ur aching for the one u loved to be happy.
and i say u are happier now… i should be happy as well
but i cant hide myself and tears dropped when i close my eyes and sleep away.
y did i love u ?
how much i love u ?
i jz dont know.
but i know that i still miss u …
u were perfect for me….. but i guess im full of flaws for u …
p/s : its time for me to try to accept my feelings and face it. being keeping this for sometime in my hardisk hahaha. y should i be ashame of stgh i feel?? y should i care so much abt what others might say when im jz being me. have such a feeling is not a shame and not a crime. and ofcouse i should learn to express it as well. bcause u know what? not everybody have telekinetics and can read ur mind and feelings. i admit every single words ive writen and i admit my mistakes. stoopid me. i hope the next time i read this post again, i can say to my self " i apreciate that i had this experience as lesson "….
what doesnt kill u, it will make u stronger… so accept it and dont get killed by it. survive it !
